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THEN AND NOW

BY JOCELYN CUTIE

Before spelling there was nothing. There sometimes was the slightest glimmer of light in whatever hell I inhabited. The light was mainly emanated by my parents. But the world was mainly dark: I had no way of telling them that I was in this body. I had no means of communication. But I was totally one of the lucky ones. Had Mom and Dad not taken me to see Judy, the nightmare would never have ended. I am getting so teary now, just thinking about then and now.

11/19/2024 0 Comments

My Date

On Saturday I had a date with Alex. He may not have known it was a date…but I did. I should mention that he definitely has some inkling that I like him, ‘cause I am anything but subtle. I am hanging it all out there for the world to see. I am like a love streaker: no shame. Besides Alex and me, my parents and Judy were there…more’s the pity. Alex and I ate the same lunch, ‘cause we’re soul mates.
And quite a lot of the conversation was about my love for Alex…at least in my head it was.

Definitely we are going to have dinner together in my new house once we move. Alex is going to be the guest of honor…and I am going to show him all the photos of him and me in my room. And we are going to have so much fun that we decide to do it every Sunday.

Believing is the key to victory.

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11/12/2024 0 Comments

House of My Dreams

I am going to move houses soon. We may have sold our house and are looking for a new one. I am excited to move really, not nervous. I am excited and almost can’t wait to move, which makes me unusual. I am ordinarily anxious about change, but not this time. This time I am happy because it is a mark of the New Joss.

New Joss is a really happy person, with friends and fun. She is going places. That is why this new house will be so wonderful. It will have no reminders of the way life used to be.

I am definitely going to decorate my room with all New-Joss things. It will be blue and white, the M2H colors. It will have real books, and lots of photos of my friends. It will have the feel of my new life. And let’s get real: it won’t have the room for all the bad memories I have. I’ll pack them up and take them to the dump.

So yeah, I can’t move fast enough. Mount Kisco, here I come!

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11/5/2024 0 Comments

Normal Me

Nothing anyone could have said could have prepared me for the awesomeness that is the M2H Dance. I have the belief that it was the most fun ever. Dancing is my favorite, and the fact that it was a no-judgment zone made it only fun. At no point did I feel self-conscious: it was beyond awesome. Even Judy’s mess up of the Macarena made no difference. The whole night told a story of speakers and nonspeakers mixing together seamlessly, with no differences between them.

I cannot remember a time in my life before M2H where I was treated as just a normal person. It was always “us” and “them”...never “we.” Because of that, I feel so normal recently. I have to tell you, that feels great. Being a normal person has always been my dream. I believe that is the magic of M2H. Outside these doors, I am disabled; inside this place, I am just Joss. I am again the person I really am, inside this nonfunctioning body.