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4/16/2025 3 Comments Cure Autism NowAwkward to say perhaps but - I am eager to discuss awkward things. All my life I felt ashamed of myself because I look and sound cognitively impaired, but I’m not. It’s hard to be a mismatch of inside and outside. People think you’re something you’re not; and they are judging you on the outside appearance. I felt demeaned by it, and a sense of shame because I know what I appear to be…and I can’t control or stop it. My stupid mouth spouts Sesame Street endlessly. And that makes me appear to be someone I’m not. I don’t know why it picked Sesame Street but for heaven’s sake, I’m 14 years old! I don’t know why my idiotic OCD settled on Sesame Street. I hate it more than words can say. Those people who don’t want a cure for autism can go jump in a lake. Let them live with their mouths spouting Sesame Street instead of language for even one day, and let’s see how they feel then. They’d be begging for a cure in ten minutes. I am begging for a cure. I don’t want to live like this for the rest of my life. I want to be on the outside what I am on the inside. I am highly intelligent, and I want the world to see me that way. I want to have control over my own body for Pete’s sake. And I am sick and tired of my freaking mouth reciting Sesame Street. 
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3/26/2025 0 Comments Medicines: An UpdateI am totally improving on my medicine. My brain is calming down and I have moments of real peace. Happy to report that heeding Dr. Minhas’ [psychiatrist] advice has totally started to help me. I believe this will continue to improve my life because I can look more normal, being quieter. My mouth is still making a racket most of the time - but not all the time. I have to be patient while we figure out the exact right medicines and doses, but I’m encouraged. I believe in a few months I will be quiet. I am also not angry all the time, which feels good. And I have to say too that I’m sleeping better. So, two thumbs up for Dr. Minhas.  2/19/2025 0 Comments Help UsI am getting happier every week. My Mom rocks, and she took me to see a great, new psychiatrist. He apparently sees many M2Hers. He is helping me so much. On top of that, I feel more positive about myself. I don’t hate myself anymore. So here’s the thing, parents: I know that many of you hate to give us medicines. But you are not doing us any favors. I hated being angry all the time. I always felt horrible after hitting Judy. I hated that I was being mean to my Mom. I couldn’t stop though. But now that I’m on medicine, I feel so much happier. So please understand that we must live in these terrible bodies that don’t listen to our minds. It’s up to you to help us.  12/18/2024 3 Comments Typing By MyselfAbout eighteen months ago, my mother made me start independent typing with Judy. I hated it more than I can say. It pissed me off so much that I couldn’t get to any of the letters. It was hard to keep trying, but my Mom and Judy pushed me. Sometimes I would get so mad I’d punch Judy…and then I’d hate myself. But they persisted and made me keep trying. Right before Thanksgiving, it clicked. I believe it was Liam’s [Judy’s son] visit that inspired me. I wanted to show off, so I made a huge effort. I typed my first sentence, openly, with no CP. It was freaking awesome. In the New Year I want to get better and faster…and then I want to show my school district just how wrong they’ve been. It will be epic.  10/9/2024 2 Comments School DepressionI am losing my mind at school. I am not able to cope anymore. I don’t know the older students here stayed sane, year after year. All I do there is idiotic nonsense that I knew when I was a toddler. And everyone treats me like I am stupid. I truly can’t stand it anymore. Being able to talk has let me tell my mother how I feel. It has reached the point where I genuinely feel violent at times. I know that my Mom is working to help me. So is Judy I know but…I very much want to get out now. I want to get out yesterday. I am getting majorly more and more depressed every day I go there.  Every teenager needs a hero or two to look up to. Many teens pick sports stars or pop singers. Not me. My number one hero is Alex Gorman, Judy’s son. There are a lot of reasons for my admiration. Firstly, he was the first of us at M2H to get his high school diploma. And he loves education and learning. Secondly, he is super cool and not nerdy. Thirdly, he loves being with us here at M2H, no matter how young or old we are. He was the first to get into college. He is funny beyond everything. And finally, he exemplifies perseverance. He was so absolutely sick for so long, but he still accomplished so much. All of us here admire him so much. After all, who doesn’t want to be like him?  |
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