The New Me

I am sitting here in Judy’s office grinning like a lunatic. I get so excited when I am coming to see her that I feel giddy. I believe I am happier these days than I ever was before spelling combined. It’s like there was a me back then that just existed and the me now, that is the real Ryan. I used to wonder what Ryan would have been like if he weren’t disabled. I guessed he’d be smart and funny and have a ton of friends.


Well, guess what? He is finally existing, and he is all the things I’d dreamed of. He is me now. 

This Ryan wants to do something with his life. I get it that I’m still disabled…but I feel way less disabled than I used to. Now I feel more like Ryan, who just happens to talk with his finger. It doesn’t feel like I can’t do anything anymore. So now that I can say anything I want, I’m going to have new dreams. 

Instead of dreaming about who I would have been, I will dream about who I will be.