Doing Nothing

I am thinking about so many things lately, including personal goals. There is so much that I want to do with my life. Living for a long time is meaningless without accomplishment. 


So what do I want to accomplish? College is my main goal, first of all. I am incredibly intelligent, and I am going to waste. There is so much that I could be doing if I could learn more. I love math and science. I also really love literature - I am thinking that in an ideal world, I’d major in literature. (I particularly love all the books I’ve read in my book club, especially Austen.) 

If I appear bitter lately in my blog posts, it’s because I am. I am angry and grief-stricken about it all, and how unfair it is. Being disabled is a nightmare that never ends but being disabled and accomplishing nothing is beyond description.