That Presence

I have really had these changes in my thinking since Alex’s bar mitzvah. Thinking, I feel that God was there. I have genuinely never felt that kind of peace before. I have no particular reason to say this, as I am not religious as all. But sitting there that day, I’ve felt something I’ve never felt before. My OCD vanished, my anxiety vanished, and I felt such love and peace. I wish that I always genuinely felt that. 


What that was, I suppose I’ll never know. But I do know that every nonspeaker there felt the same. Why my utterly horrendous anxiety vanished I don’t understand, since I always have it. I just wish I could always feel that way. It was glorious. And feeling at peace really was God’s presence.