Akathisia

I can’t sit still. It’s the side effect of a medication; it’s called akathisia. It’s getting better now that my Mom stopped giving me the med, but it’s not gone. Let me tell you, that is one awful feeling. It is hellish.

That’s the thing about medicines. They can definitely improve your life, and they can definitely make it hell. I see others improve and I am jealous. But I know that, like me, they tried tons of different medicines: they didn’t get better overnight. 

There are so many medicines in the world. I have to believe that one or more can help me with OCD. OCD is my biggest problem - even more so than being nonspeaking. Being nonspeaking sucks, but OCD is hell. I believe it is the worst thing on earth.