A Busy Mind

Having things to look forward to lets me forget my disability for a while. There are so many exciting things to look forward to in the next couple of months that keep me from brooding on the negative. The gala in April is the best night of the year, and it’s less than two months away. I am already feeling the excitement building inside myself. And in March I am going to Alex’s bar mitzvah. I absolutely cannot wait. 

It strikes me over and over how radically different my life is now. Being able to communicate has changed everything. Instead of the endless misery and fear I lived in, I am happy to wake up every day. 

It’s interesting how easy it is to forget I am disabled. It is no longer the only thought I have. My mind is full of interesting things now, like events in the past and future, baseball, conversations, friends, math, poetry, books, and so much more. And when your mind is full of great things, it’s easy to forget the bad stuff. 

No longer is my mind only obsessing on one thing:  not being able to tell anyone that I am in here.  It’s busy and happy thinking about wonderful things.