The Worst Thing About Apraxia

The hardest thing that apraxic kids have to deal with is impulsiveness. All of my actions are impulsive.  Having no real control of my motor means that I am unable to really stop myself from always doing the weirdest things.  Like when I am at church, I try to touch the cheeks of the other girls a lot.  I have no idea why I do this.  I do not want to do it. I know it makes them feel uncomfortable but have no ability to stop myself.  I love people, but I do not want to keep touching them!  And I feel so stupid right after.  Really wish I could apologize but they are usually girls I do not know well.  Hard to apologize when you literally have to spell it out! 

Many things that I want to do are messed up by my impulsiveness.  For example, when playing games with my sisters my hands will act like they have minds of their own and grab at the cards or pieces that I do not want to play. 

What you need to understand is it is hard to control.  Not having control has the worst impact on how people see me.  It makes people think that I am less intelligent than I really am.  Hate them thinking that I am stupid.  Before I could spell, everyone thought the impulsive things I do are intentional and that I like doing them.  I do not like them.  Only an idiot would.