CP Misery

My time at M2H is too limited. I can talk particularly easily with Judy CPing, so I need to get it all out while I’m here. No one else is as good as her with me, except my Mom. 

I am feeling particularly down in the dumps because two of my CPs are leaving at the same time. I am so over this whole CP thing.  I am thinking a lot about it lately. What is it about us that makes us need CPs? I particularly find that Judy’s brain is quiet and that makes it so easy to think. You cannot understand, if you’re not a nonspeaker, how noisy people’s minds can be. 

People are naturally disorganized in their minds. They think loads of weird and arbitrary stuff, and it makes us dysregulated. I am not able to not tune into it. It’s like seeing versus hearing:  I can’t close my mind’s “eyes.” 

Anyway, I am in a really bad mood today because I am losing two CPs, and I don’t get to see Judy enough.